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  • Writer's pictureHannah Crazyhawk
    • Sep 1, 2020
    • 1 min read

Oppenheimer

Updated: Sep 4, 2020

"Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds” - Oppenheimer / Vishnu


This is my self portrait that I started a year ago and never finished. When I had my near death experience last month after my surgery I can say that, "as Mack explained, there will be darkness again." (Hozier)

Katie Mack is a theoretical astrophysicist. She just wrote a beautiful book called, "The End of Everything." It's about each way the universe may eventually end.


Yes, there is darkness. There is nothing. I have seen that void, with only a tiny photon remaining - only the last piece of my consciousness. It clung to this world. And I refused to leave. As the light of life returned to me I was afraid and angry. Why am I still here?


Because I have written you down and you are immortal. And you have work to do, people to heal, and worlds to change, forever.


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